If I really wanted only Christ's will (as I claim), then when you remind me in front of a nominating committee that I never get things in on time, I should say, "Thank you for calling this to our attention. I see that it affects the possibilities of my doing as good a job as chairman of this committee as old Joe would. And I think he might do a better job." But this is not my reaction. My reaction is one of anger and resentment. I am furious that you have brought to light before this group one of my cardinal weaknesses. And I submit that we all react this way in certain areas because our real desire is to satisfy our own self-centered needs.